Boys

As any other girl out there, I have tried to wrap my mind around boys. Like they say we are complicated and we say they are complicated and I think in reality we both are very simple it's just how we handle things. So, I have been in a relationship for I guess you could say almost a year? I don't really know we weren't particularly official for awhile there, but it's been awhile that we've been "together" quote unquote. So that's my thing here, relationships no matter the good or bad are complicated. I sometimes drive myself mad because I just don't want to lose the boy i'm with. He's put me through situations in which could have been better. Let's just say distance is rough, it's evil, and I hate it, but he's worth it to me, at least I really damn hope so. I like to think that even though some of us say guys are assholes, pigs, whatever.... I mean granted some are, not all are. & as I was saying... I like to think that if someone you choose to commit to and be with keep that promise to you and if that weren't the case they wouldn't be with you. Yet as a girl, some of us have this insecurity, or doubt, or paranoia, or we overt hink and overanalyze and create problems for ourselves. I have learned that all of that is stupid, and i'm just as guilty I have gone through it all and sometimes still catch myself doing those things. BUT it makes girls crazy, which is why so many have bad reps and relationships fail. I have come to realize lately that I need to stop being like that even, that I need to start having faith that I am good enough for a guy, and that not every guy out there will screw me over or two time me like guys in my past. I think that's the biggest problem, comparison. Comparison of yourself to other women, comparison of the boy you are talking to, to the last boy (who happened to be a douche or whatever). We get it in our heads that if one guy did that to us another probably will do the same, or they might, and we lose our confidence and that's just not okay. All girls deserve to feel like they're worthy, and I wish that guys could realize that the bad seeds out there have made a lot of girls insecure, it's sad actually because nobody understands that. It's hard as it is to trust another human being, but when it comes to emotions and telling people how you feel and trusting them with your heart.. it's a scary thing and it's far from easy. So to all the girls out there have confidence in yourself and trust your gut, I think that's the most truth telling of all is your gut over your mind, let's be real our minds make us nutty.